I spend too much energy worrying about what other people must think of me. Not so much in the middle-school way of worrying about my clothes or appearance or being a little weird. We’re all a little weird, it’s cool! My worry is that people think I am a sham. A liar. A hypocrite.
I am always thinking about what people say I must be doing (or not doing), when no one is watching.
I mean, lets look at the facts -
- I work out daily (before Sweaty13, it was 5 or 6 days a week)
- I track what I eat carefully
- I often to do juice fasts
- I am knowledgeable about nutrition, super foods, and diet trends
- I write a “Healthy Living Blog”
- I offer diet and work out advice and even make programs for friends
- I have a Personal Trainer
- I live an active, and healthy lifestyle
But in my mind… all of those facts are negated by just ONE : I am overweight. I am still nearly 100lbs overweight.
Because of this, I assume that everyone is thinking that I don’t work out like I say I do, I don’t eat like I say I do, I don’t try as hard as I say I try. Is it true? No. Not at all. I don’t lie on here. And I certainly don’t lie to my trainer, my family, my doctor, or my friends. So why do I worry about what other people think? I don’t really know… I guess it’s because I try SO. HARD. to be the person that I feel would make me happiest… the person who is strong, healthy, fit, attractive, and inspirational. For me, I want to be visible proof that the life I created for myself is a healthy one. And right now… I have no proof. It’s my word against the size of my butt. And lets be honest, my butt might speak a little bit louder sometimes!
Here is what I’ve realized – I can’t presume to know what people really think of me, just as much as they can’t presume that I am lying or legit.
I have to just keep doing me. Work for my goals… whether they manifest visually or not… *I* will know what I’ve done and how I feel and that is the only thing I have control over.
Do you ever think or worry that people have the wrong impression of you?
I think everyone worries (even just a little) about what other people think. You have the right attitude, though. As long as YOU know that you are doing your best, that’s all that matters!
Thank you! Perfect comment
Only reason your butt speaks louder, is because of that cabbage soup you made!
Keep up the good work, I know it’s not the same as seeing results yourself, but we do see your hard work, and you DO inspire a lot of us. Now chug some water and let’s go lose some weight!!!
Boy, do I know that feeling!
You’re an inspiration for many reasons — and this post just emphasizes that! Especially for others to see that, while you do worry sometimes, you’re going to focus on you and you alone. Especially right now, that is the attitude I’m happy to see! It’s something I’m struggling with — being happy with what I’ve done, and what my plans are regardless of how any other person may feel about it.
Thank you, thank you…
I really appreciate, first of all, that you take the time to read these entries. And secondly, for always understanding what it is I am trying to say. You’re the best
Do you ever think or worry that people have the wrong impression of you?
All. The. Friggin’. Time.
Hunnie… It doesn’t matter what other people think…sod them…. It isn’t important… Let people think what they want. You are doing great xx
Thank you Kiki